Summer Blues

This summer I have found myself not really being content, and I couldn’t tell you why. I’m not like manic depressive, or extremely unhappy- but I find myself being met with the slightest tinge of melancholy. This happens to some degree every summer because, although I hang out with my friends a lot, I miss the close contact with everyone and the opportunity to see friends on a daily basis that school always offered (ugh– weird, I guess that means I miss school), and plus I just end up with a lot more free time on my hands. During the school year I was always too busy to ever stop to realize that I was discontent- if I ever was. But this summer the feeling is stronger.

I think it’s due in part to the fact that this is my last summer before college, so I’m coming to terms with the fact that with the exception of my really, really, good friends, and people that are going to Tennessee Tech, after this summer there are a lot of people that I will seldom if ever see again. And that is always hard for me. I am a very nostalgic person. It’s kind of lame- but it’s not unusual for me to sit in my bonus room watching picture slideshows of me and all of my friends on my computer set to the Amy Grant song, “Oh How The Years Go Bye.” (please stifle your laughs) I have a really hard time letting people go. In my little perfect world everyone from Beech High School would just go to the same college together, and none of my friends from work would ever leave, and Long Hollow Baptist Church would just teleport over to Cookeville so I could still go there on a weekly basis in college — but that’s not reality. I have to learn to trust God with my future. Because his plans and his timing is perfect. And isn’t it so good to know that during these times of uncertainty in our lives, God is right there with us and will carry us through.

Even though this summer hasn’t always been easy, it’s been a lot of fun at times too, and God has given me lots of opportunities to make lasting memories with friends and the people I love.

Senior Trip to Myrtle Beach!